xkela

Today I bought a 18th century dress. I'm still on my weightloss journey, so it's going to be a while before I can actually wear it, but when I can I'm going to have a Marie Antoinette inspired photoshoot with myself as the model :) This will totally keep me motivated during the winter! I'm really looking forward to it, and especially to wear that gorgeous dress!

I love to take pictures, I really, really love it. But sometimes (times like now) I just feel empty. I've got nothing to express at the moment and it makes me so frustrated. It's like my whole world is stuck. I can't write, can't sing, can't create and it kills me, slowly. 20 days remain until it's time for the wedding. I really hope some of my creativity has returned when that day comes. I'm used to have all this inspiritation inside just waiting to explode, and the way I'm feeling now makes me freakishly scared. What if I never get my inspiration and creativity back? I've seen it happen to so many people during the years :(

So, a few weeks ago I was absolutely terrified to be a wedding photographer. Then, all the sudden, I had this urge to take pictures and I posted an add on my facebook page offering free photo-sessions for experience. I got 60 ANSWERS and I was counting on like 5 at the most. And now all the sudden I'm a working photographer who even gets paid, even though I don't want to. It's crazy and I don't understand a thing.. Seriously :O